I have not blogged, properly blogged, for a very long time. I took a break because my heart had changed and had turned my words into “me, me, me” instead of “Him, Him, Him”. That might sound funny to some because after all, aren’t blogs supposed to be about the writer? I guess most blogs are, yes. But I set out in the very beginning with One Quiet Friday as a means of encouragement and inspiration and challenge to other Christians which I believe it has been, however in my heart it had eventually evolved into something which was more about how many ‘hits’ I was getting and how many people were talking about it – my writing became self conscious. And so I stopped blogging. Not on purpose, but I couldn’t bring myself to write my deep thoughts and opinions if they weren’t completely honest. I believe that this is something that every Christian struggles with – is it really, truthfully all about Him? As John Piper puts it so well, “Is God truly at the bottom of your joy?”. And I believe that yes, God is ‘at the bottom’ of my joy, but it can be a struggle to keep Him there. Life is a constant battle between our desire for glory and God’s entitlement to it. While I know God has been working in my heart and changing me and my outlook, I am not perfect. This is still a struggle and it always will be, for everyone. If you can’t realise and identify that in your heart, I pray desperately for revelation for you because you have essentially eliminated your need for Him.
I’m back, and ready to blog again by the grace of God.
He died for everyone so that those who receive His new life will no longer live for themselves. Instead, they will live for Christ, who died and was raised for them – 2 Corinthians 5:15 (NLT)
Tags: blogging break, Is God at the bottom of your joy?, John Piper
